February 2012
I just want to be free.
I never know how to react when people bring up cutting or suicide. Like, the other day in media studies we were talking about subjects that the media never really takes sides on and he started talking about suicide. I felt sick. Then in geography, we’re going on a trip next month and we might go bungee jumping and my teacher was saying how she didn’t want to “rehearse for...
alwaysjustme15:
Dear followers,
I love you and I’m sorry if I do something stupid tonight. I guess, this is my goodbye.
-Love, Aly
Please don’t do this. I know it might feel like no one cares, or there’s no hope or there’s just no point in living anymore, but if you just hang in there and get help I swear on my life things might start improving. You’re unbelievably...
I’m so sorry. This is all my fault. If I had never have been born this wouldn’t have happened. Please don’t go. I’m sorry. I’m so, so, so, so sorry. I’ll do anything. Please. Please don’t go.
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Do you ever feel as if your thoughts are racing and you can’t keep up? Like, you’re thinking about too many things at once and your mind is working too fast.
I’m torn between shooting everyone in my school or shooting myself.
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Oh, and another thing. You may or may not remember I once posted about this girl I used to be friends with but then she ditched me to hang out with cooler people? Well now, it seems like they’re over her and she’s come back to my group of friends like she didn’t used to treat them like freaks behind their backs. It just annoys me because now they’re all treating her like...
School started on yesterday. It’s only been two days and I’m already starting to feel like crap. The medication helps to an extent but it still doesn’t stop my thoughts.
I’m not one of those people who take all sciences or business related subjects, and it’s not just because I failed maths because I skipped school so much. My Music and French classes are awesome...
Anonymous asked: There are a lot ways that I could do it right now. I'm so distant from everyone, I don't think anyone would be the wiser until a day or two from now. It would probably be my sister who found me, unless she took the lack of a response at the knock on the door as a "don't come in". Then I probably wouldn't be found until I started to smell. I'm so tired of...
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I’m trying to figure out if there’s anything worth suffering for.
January 2012
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I’m completely better now. I’m not “getting” better, I am better. I remember when 85% of my thoughts were about suicide, like contemplating suicide was a part of my mental daily checklist. I do think about it every now and then, but I know I won’t do it. I know it’s still the holidays and I don’t know what will happen once I go back to school but I guess I...
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ifeeltoomuch asked: happy birthday, best wishes! :)
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